Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Stubbornness and independent

These are two words that I choose to describe myself. I think a lot of it has to do with TS, but so much of it has to do with my personality. Because of this, it makes it extremely difficult to ask for help on this diet. You see, so much of my life I had to prove my accomplishments and show the world (so to speak) that I can do it on my own. I'm the one that even though she's married, isn't afraid to go to a movie or anywhere by herself. Why not? If it's something I want to do- I'm going to find a way to do it. I'm the one who went to Europe by herself, when a friend backed out. Walked around London by herself and loved it!!! I don't let anything stop me and that's what I need to keep reminding myself on this journey to lose weight.
The TS stubbornness comes from the fact that I never wanted to be treated any differently and I praise God in the fact that I had parents who supported that. I remember in Elementary, I was the only one in Gym who couldn't make a basket in Basketball. It drove me nuts, but I practiced and practiced until I got it. Now I know there were situations in my life that worried them- driving a

car, going to college, etc.. But the thing is, I always knew I could do it, I knew I had to do it. Noone was going to tell me I couldn't.
With TS, you here all kinds of things from the doctor - she's going to have trouble with this and difficulties with that.I was so sick of it. I never wanted to be treated any differently. I hated getting shots and having to go to the doc so much. Yes, math was difficult for me and I wasn't inthe top math group, but I made darn sure I wasn't in the lowest class.
Now here I am 34 years old and 50 pounds overweight. And I feel like I am lost. I don't know how to do this the correct way.