Saturday, January 8, 2011
NOt the best day!!
I have to say today has been one of the toughest days yet. The snow and cold made me want to stay in bed , so I didn't any exercise. Feeling BLAH...Also not happy that I had gained a pound since Wed. I think it was the chili that I had on Thursday and the smothered chicken I had Friday night. I just probably ate too much. UGH>>>>>> However, I stuck to my guns today. I drank all my water and didn't let it get the best of me today. Tomorrow, it should be better out and I'll go to Jazzercise. I didn't break down and pig out and drink regular soda, so that is good. It's just very frustrating and I don't want to fail. Hopefully, tomorrow will be better.
Friday, January 7, 2011
What I Want.
Well... like most of us, I want a lot of things. To be more adventurous,travel the world, have money, etc..., but I'm talking about what I want out of losing weight. So I've decided to make a list..
What I want:
1. To feel my hips!
2.To NOT have my thighs rub together
3. To be able to wear a sleeveless shirt
4.To fit into clothes that aren't size XL or L (unless it's children sizes- you TS sistas can relate)
5. To push myself even when I get frustrated and continue taking Jazzercise.
6. To look decent in a bathing suit and NOT be so paranoid about what I look like
7. To stop taking my blood pressure medicine
8. To find a dress that I can wear and look good in
9. To have Michelle Obama arms- lol
10. To gain the knowledge and power to eat healthy and make the best choices.
Will try to write more later. I had a couple of slices of bacon and egg beaters for breakfast. And I plan on making a low carb recipe- Smothered Chicken later for dinner. Can't wait. Going to even get out the Geroge Foreman to grill the chicken- lol
What I want:
1. To feel my hips!
2.To NOT have my thighs rub together
3. To be able to wear a sleeveless shirt
4.To fit into clothes that aren't size XL or L (unless it's children sizes- you TS sistas can relate)
5. To push myself even when I get frustrated and continue taking Jazzercise.
6. To look decent in a bathing suit and NOT be so paranoid about what I look like
7. To stop taking my blood pressure medicine
8. To find a dress that I can wear and look good in
9. To have Michelle Obama arms- lol
10. To gain the knowledge and power to eat healthy and make the best choices.
Will try to write more later. I had a couple of slices of bacon and egg beaters for breakfast. And I plan on making a low carb recipe- Smothered Chicken later for dinner. Can't wait. Going to even get out the Geroge Foreman to grill the chicken- lol
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Temptation..."My name is Sara Lundy and I'm a sodaholic".
I woke up this morning expecting to be sore from my Jazzercise class, but I woke up feeling better than I had in a long time. I loved it! I am going to take it a little easy tonight. After I've finished my chores (dishes, laundry,taking care of the liter box,etc) ,I may do the Wii Fit for a bit and I still plan to go for a walk after dinner. I've really come to enjoy my walks after dinner.
I don't know how many people will agree with me, but you CAN become addicted to Soda. My main addiction for years has been Coca Cola. Let me explain and give you a little background. From early on (I"m talking 2 or 3), I have been a soda drinker. I have family members that remember me at 3 or 4, asking for "Peppi" ( Pepsi) all the time and I have a picture of me at 4, holding a 2 liter bottle of Pepsi straight up and I'm chugging it down. Now I did change from Pepsi to Coca Cola somewhere between high school and college, but that's not important. What's important is how much it became a part of my life. I, like an alcoholic, had to have a soda in the morning and before I go to bed every day. I would often get yelled out by my parents for spending too much money on soda and drinking all the soda in the house. Even Deron has commented on how much we spend on soda. Now just how much soda could I drink? If I had my freedom to drink as much soda as I liked, I could drink 3-4, 2 liter bottles of Coca Cola.
Ironically, the DAY I started my diet, I watched a show called, "Freaky Eaters", which was focusing on a woman who was addicted to soda. I was so happy to see that someone had recognized it as a serious issue and had taken it seriously. I related with the lady on the show 100%. But sadly, she kept drinking regular soda and I know that I can't. It's affected my health way too much. It affects not only my weight, but my teeth and energy level as well .I have to make myself drink limited numbers of diet soda every day.
Now for the reason, why I titled this blog, "Temptation". I hadn't really had any desire for a regular Coke until today. I opened the classroom fridge (a mini fridge) of the teacher I had subbed for the past two days and what do I see... 2 cans of Coca Cola. I so badly wanted to swipe one of those cans and gulp it down as fast as I could. But I didn't , I gruntingly took a drink from my water bottle and pouted to myself for a few minutes. I once read that temptations only last for 12 minutes and that if you can hold out for 12 minutes, it'll pass. Hope that's true. I'm so proud of myself for staying strong. I must keep it up.
I know I skipped my "What Sara Ate" part of the blog yesterday, but I did do really well yesterday. I had a banana, whole wheat flat-bread with chicken and light Swiss cheese, and I had my leftover Asian Pork w/ corn. Now what about today and this evening.....
Here you go...
Breakfast- Corn Flakes w/Skim Milk ( I hate whole milk anyways)
Lunch- Half a piece of whole wheat flat bread w/some Lemon pepper hummus and a few carrots.
Dinner- I'm making chili tonight. Pretty healthy though. I use extra lean ground beef, light tomato juice and No crackers. May put a little cheese in it though. We'll see.
I don't know how many people will agree with me, but you CAN become addicted to Soda. My main addiction for years has been Coca Cola. Let me explain and give you a little background. From early on (I"m talking 2 or 3), I have been a soda drinker. I have family members that remember me at 3 or 4, asking for "Peppi" ( Pepsi) all the time and I have a picture of me at 4, holding a 2 liter bottle of Pepsi straight up and I'm chugging it down. Now I did change from Pepsi to Coca Cola somewhere between high school and college, but that's not important. What's important is how much it became a part of my life. I, like an alcoholic, had to have a soda in the morning and before I go to bed every day. I would often get yelled out by my parents for spending too much money on soda and drinking all the soda in the house. Even Deron has commented on how much we spend on soda. Now just how much soda could I drink? If I had my freedom to drink as much soda as I liked, I could drink 3-4, 2 liter bottles of Coca Cola.
Ironically, the DAY I started my diet, I watched a show called, "Freaky Eaters", which was focusing on a woman who was addicted to soda. I was so happy to see that someone had recognized it as a serious issue and had taken it seriously. I related with the lady on the show 100%. But sadly, she kept drinking regular soda and I know that I can't. It's affected my health way too much. It affects not only my weight, but my teeth and energy level as well .I have to make myself drink limited numbers of diet soda every day.
Now for the reason, why I titled this blog, "Temptation". I hadn't really had any desire for a regular Coke until today. I opened the classroom fridge (a mini fridge) of the teacher I had subbed for the past two days and what do I see... 2 cans of Coca Cola. I so badly wanted to swipe one of those cans and gulp it down as fast as I could. But I didn't , I gruntingly took a drink from my water bottle and pouted to myself for a few minutes. I once read that temptations only last for 12 minutes and that if you can hold out for 12 minutes, it'll pass. Hope that's true. I'm so proud of myself for staying strong. I must keep it up.
I know I skipped my "What Sara Ate" part of the blog yesterday, but I did do really well yesterday. I had a banana, whole wheat flat-bread with chicken and light Swiss cheese, and I had my leftover Asian Pork w/ corn. Now what about today and this evening.....
Here you go...
Breakfast- Corn Flakes w/Skim Milk ( I hate whole milk anyways)
Lunch- Half a piece of whole wheat flat bread w/some Lemon pepper hummus and a few carrots.
Dinner- I'm making chili tonight. Pretty healthy though. I use extra lean ground beef, light tomato juice and No crackers. May put a little cheese in it though. We'll see.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Jazzercise and Inspriation from Pink and Barbra.
Well.... I did it. I went to my first Jazzercise class. It was so much fun. My body feels great. I absolutely loved it. It felt great to dance and move again. I think I loved the weight training part the best. I struggled following the jumps and moves some, but no one cared. It was just a lot of fun. The staff and everyone else was wonderful to me. Def. can't wait to go at it again. Grant it.. my body may not feel that way tomorrow. I will go back on Thursday for another class and then maybe on Sunday for a third one. We'll see. I may just start with 2 classes per week and then build up to 3.
Inspiration- they say can come from anywhere. I lately have found myself inspired by the music of Pink, especially the song TROUBLE. It just gets me moving- lol. Another source of inspiration has come from the Barbra Streisand's movie, The Mirror Has Two Faces. I love the part where Barbra's character transforms herself from a frumpy lady to a sexy woman. She comes to realize that she did it for herself, not for a man and that the changes needed to come from within. In the movie, she says she never felt pretty and that finally she found what that felt like to be pretty and have people notice her. We all need to find that love, self-worth and strength from within to make changes in our life.
Now of course, my biggest source of inspiration has come from all my friends and family, who's supporting me 100%. I can't tell you how much that means to me.
It's so funny that even after less than a week of dieting, I am starting to feel different. I feel better, I've started to get more energy, and I have a more positive outlook on life. I feel I can do it!!!!!
Inspiration- they say can come from anywhere. I lately have found myself inspired by the music of Pink, especially the song TROUBLE. It just gets me moving- lol. Another source of inspiration has come from the Barbra Streisand's movie, The Mirror Has Two Faces. I love the part where Barbra's character transforms herself from a frumpy lady to a sexy woman. She comes to realize that she did it for herself, not for a man and that the changes needed to come from within. In the movie, she says she never felt pretty and that finally she found what that felt like to be pretty and have people notice her. We all need to find that love, self-worth and strength from within to make changes in our life.
Now of course, my biggest source of inspiration has come from all my friends and family, who's supporting me 100%. I can't tell you how much that means to me.
It's so funny that even after less than a week of dieting, I am starting to feel different. I feel better, I've started to get more energy, and I have a more positive outlook on life. I feel I can do it!!!!!
Monday, January 3, 2011
The Past
The past makes us what we are in the present, so I've always believed... So in order to make peace and accept the past, I'm going to write about my past struggle with my weight.
My weight became a struggle with me,when I turned 14 and my Pediatric Endocrinologist (the doc I saw for my TS), told me for the first time that I needed to start losing weight. I don't think my mom was too concerned at that time and after I may have tried eating healthier foods for awhile (don't really remember). Anyways, that's when the paranoia about my weight and self-conscience began. After that apt. I was always asking myself, "Am I fat?", "Does everyone else think I'm fat". It was always in the back of my mind. Now I may have weighed 100 lbs. at that time and looking back on it, I don't think I was that heavy. So this became the routine every other month when I had to see Dr. Zanganeth at the Charleston Women and Children's Hospital. He would constantly tell me I lose weight and that any breast tissue I was getting was "fat". I guess I just began to not care and soon found myself going to college and working part time at K-Mart. This was when the fast food eating began. I would grab something quick to eat on the way home from school or work . It didn't help that a Long John Silver's was next door to where I worked. I started to really pack on the weight and it got up to 160 lbs after my Freshman year at Marshall ( You could say I gained the Freshman 15 plus a lot more).
In 1995 things started to change. I was fed up. I saw a picture of me hugging my sister at my birthday party and didn't even recognize myself. I knew then, that I had to do something.....That something is a part of my life that very few people know about. I became almost bulimic. How did it start? Well, it started out with me taking diet pills, exercising constantly when I could, and eating very little. After I lost 20 lbs (in a month), it became harder. So I started taking laxatives. I know it's disgusting. I would take 2 to just get everything out of me ( I wasn't purging though, I was still only eating green beans for dinner and I was still exercising constantly). Many people around me, friends and family kept commenting on how great I looked and how wonderful it was that I was losing all of this weight. So I started taking more diet pills, more laxatives and exercising more (even going to the gym at Marshall between classes). I got to the point where I could take the laxatives (sometimes 4-6 at a time) and it would make me so nauseous that I would throw everything up. I did force myself to vomit after eating a couple of times, but that never got to be a habit. Anyways, I went from 160 to 94 lbs. I started this diet in Sept/Oct. and I weighed 94 lbs by early March. Dieting consumed so much of my life that I made excuses not to see friends and I never went out. I stayed home and exercised. Finally, I got fed up with it all and just stopped. Of course, I also gained back the weight in the following year. I don't know why I let myself get like that. All I know is that I badly wanted this guy to love me again and felt he'd stopped liking me, because I was fat. And I did get him back during all the dieting, but that relationship faded out and of course I dealt with the pain by eating.Over the years till the present, I have tried dieting (I've tried Atkins and several others to no avail) and exercising, losing 20-30 lbs at times (no drastic ways like before).
So that is my "dark" past so to speak. I'm not the same person as I was then.NO ONE needs to tell me how terrible it was and what a horrible way to try and lose weight. I know now that you have to eat in moderation and the longer it takes to lose the weight, the better you are able to keep it off. I live with a Dr. who would not allow me to be the way I was. I couldn't do it. Even the thought of being the way I was then exhausts me. It's not who I am now and I'm not going to become that way again. I am going to lose this weight by eating healthy and exercising. NO PILLS or crazy diets at all. To me I know it's a life change and that it impacts everything.
Now about today. I did awesome! 45 minutes on Wii fit and a walk after dinner. Drank my 2.2 liters of water and I'm feeling great. Here's what I ate:
Breakfast- Egg Beaters with 2 slices of bacon
Lunch- same as yesterday, without the crackers.
Dinner- Grilled Lemon Pepper Chicken and Lima beans (I LOVE MY LIMAS- lol)
Tomorrow after work, I'm going to go by the Jazzercise class and talk to them about classes. For years I have been wanting to dance (not on a stage or in a recital- just to dance again) and this will be a great way to combine my love of dancing with exercise. Can't wait.
My weight became a struggle with me,when I turned 14 and my Pediatric Endocrinologist (the doc I saw for my TS), told me for the first time that I needed to start losing weight. I don't think my mom was too concerned at that time and after I may have tried eating healthier foods for awhile (don't really remember). Anyways, that's when the paranoia about my weight and self-conscience began. After that apt. I was always asking myself, "Am I fat?", "Does everyone else think I'm fat". It was always in the back of my mind. Now I may have weighed 100 lbs. at that time and looking back on it, I don't think I was that heavy. So this became the routine every other month when I had to see Dr. Zanganeth at the Charleston Women and Children's Hospital. He would constantly tell me I lose weight and that any breast tissue I was getting was "fat". I guess I just began to not care and soon found myself going to college and working part time at K-Mart. This was when the fast food eating began. I would grab something quick to eat on the way home from school or work . It didn't help that a Long John Silver's was next door to where I worked. I started to really pack on the weight and it got up to 160 lbs after my Freshman year at Marshall ( You could say I gained the Freshman 15 plus a lot more).
In 1995 things started to change. I was fed up. I saw a picture of me hugging my sister at my birthday party and didn't even recognize myself. I knew then, that I had to do something.....That something is a part of my life that very few people know about. I became almost bulimic. How did it start? Well, it started out with me taking diet pills, exercising constantly when I could, and eating very little. After I lost 20 lbs (in a month), it became harder. So I started taking laxatives. I know it's disgusting. I would take 2 to just get everything out of me ( I wasn't purging though, I was still only eating green beans for dinner and I was still exercising constantly). Many people around me, friends and family kept commenting on how great I looked and how wonderful it was that I was losing all of this weight. So I started taking more diet pills, more laxatives and exercising more (even going to the gym at Marshall between classes). I got to the point where I could take the laxatives (sometimes 4-6 at a time) and it would make me so nauseous that I would throw everything up. I did force myself to vomit after eating a couple of times, but that never got to be a habit. Anyways, I went from 160 to 94 lbs. I started this diet in Sept/Oct. and I weighed 94 lbs by early March. Dieting consumed so much of my life that I made excuses not to see friends and I never went out. I stayed home and exercised. Finally, I got fed up with it all and just stopped. Of course, I also gained back the weight in the following year. I don't know why I let myself get like that. All I know is that I badly wanted this guy to love me again and felt he'd stopped liking me, because I was fat. And I did get him back during all the dieting, but that relationship faded out and of course I dealt with the pain by eating.Over the years till the present, I have tried dieting (I've tried Atkins and several others to no avail) and exercising, losing 20-30 lbs at times (no drastic ways like before).
So that is my "dark" past so to speak. I'm not the same person as I was then.NO ONE needs to tell me how terrible it was and what a horrible way to try and lose weight. I know now that you have to eat in moderation and the longer it takes to lose the weight, the better you are able to keep it off. I live with a Dr. who would not allow me to be the way I was. I couldn't do it. Even the thought of being the way I was then exhausts me. It's not who I am now and I'm not going to become that way again. I am going to lose this weight by eating healthy and exercising. NO PILLS or crazy diets at all. To me I know it's a life change and that it impacts everything.
Now about today. I did awesome! 45 minutes on Wii fit and a walk after dinner. Drank my 2.2 liters of water and I'm feeling great. Here's what I ate:
Breakfast- Egg Beaters with 2 slices of bacon
Lunch- same as yesterday, without the crackers.
Dinner- Grilled Lemon Pepper Chicken and Lima beans (I LOVE MY LIMAS- lol)
Tomorrow after work, I'm going to go by the Jazzercise class and talk to them about classes. For years I have been wanting to dance (not on a stage or in a recital- just to dance again) and this will be a great way to combine my love of dancing with exercise. Can't wait.
Nervous....
To start with .... I feel great..... I've done pretty well so far. But now I'm starting to get nervous. Why? Because tomorrow I go back to work and I know that going back to work is going to make dieting much tougher for me. Yes, I can pack a healthy lunch and keep active at work, but what I'm nervous about is when I get home. I'm usually so tired when I get home that I don't want to do anything. Sometimes I hurry up when and get everything done so by 7:00, I'm lying down in bed. I want to be able to exercise and walk when I get home this week. So I know that I'm going to need to push myself a little. I DON'T WANT TO FAIL AT THIS!!! Please Lord give me strength.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
What Sara Ate
Anyone who knows me knows that I am a huge fan of Saturday Night Live. Well, Gilda Radner often did a commentary on Weekend Update called "What Gilda Ate", where Gilda would share with the audience every minute thing she ate that day. Well this blog is titled "What Sara Ate"..so here it is
Breakfast: 2 bananas
Lunch: A half a piece of whole wheat flatbread with deli sliced chicken and skim Swiss cheese. Heated up in the microwave and folded like a sandwich. I also allowed myself to eat 3 small Fat-Free crackers (not saltines)
Dinner: I fixed an Asian Pork recipe that I found from this website full of great low carb recipes. Here's the link to it http://genaw.com/lowcarb. Thanks Eliza!! It was very yummy and full of flavor!! I used the crockpot to cook it and instead of 1lb of pork, I used 2 No Bone Pork Chops. I only ate one of the pork chops. To go with it, I steamed some baby carrots in the rice cooker and put some Parkay butter spray on it (no carbs, calories,fat, etc). May eat the other half of the pork chop in a few days.
Snack- If I get hungry later, I will snack on the raw carrots that I did not steam.
Now other than what I ate, I did exercise today by doing my Wii Dance Party!!! I got better every song I did. I also kept busy by cleaning and putting up more Christmas decorations. And I plan on after I write this, to go for a walk around the complex. Seems like a good night and since the weather may get worse, WHY NOT!!
I have to say, I feel great and I'm so proud of myself. I am even thinking about taking Jazzercise classes. I took Jazz from ages 9-14, so it sounds like it would be great for me. I'm hoping I can take it for free, since Dublin Jazzercise gives free classes to those who offer to do Child Care for an hour a week at the facility. Sounds like an even trade to me. This is according to the website though, so tomorrow I will have call and verify. Wish me luck. It's close to where I work and I'm sure it'd be great exercise for me.
Breakfast: 2 bananas
Lunch: A half a piece of whole wheat flatbread with deli sliced chicken and skim Swiss cheese. Heated up in the microwave and folded like a sandwich. I also allowed myself to eat 3 small Fat-Free crackers (not saltines)
Dinner: I fixed an Asian Pork recipe that I found from this website full of great low carb recipes. Here's the link to it http://genaw.com/lowcarb. Thanks Eliza!! It was very yummy and full of flavor!! I used the crockpot to cook it and instead of 1lb of pork, I used 2 No Bone Pork Chops. I only ate one of the pork chops. To go with it, I steamed some baby carrots in the rice cooker and put some Parkay butter spray on it (no carbs, calories,fat, etc). May eat the other half of the pork chop in a few days.
Snack- If I get hungry later, I will snack on the raw carrots that I did not steam.
Now other than what I ate, I did exercise today by doing my Wii Dance Party!!! I got better every song I did. I also kept busy by cleaning and putting up more Christmas decorations. And I plan on after I write this, to go for a walk around the complex. Seems like a good night and since the weather may get worse, WHY NOT!!
I have to say, I feel great and I'm so proud of myself. I am even thinking about taking Jazzercise classes. I took Jazz from ages 9-14, so it sounds like it would be great for me. I'm hoping I can take it for free, since Dublin Jazzercise gives free classes to those who offer to do Child Care for an hour a week at the facility. Sounds like an even trade to me. This is according to the website though, so tomorrow I will have call and verify. Wish me luck. It's close to where I work and I'm sure it'd be great exercise for me.
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